Life seems a little slower this morning....

Day 4  9/3 7:25am and we are getting ready to head up to the hospital. Life seems a little slower this morning. It is cloudy, no cars on the road, no wind and the colon on our clock is just blinking and blinking with the time stuck on 6:24. Before the time ever switches to 6:25, I had just recalled the entire day yesterday. From the morning drive to the hospital all the way to last night. Last night some good things happened and sad things happened. The sad things are obvious: knowing her body is failing, grandma is never going to see the baby and all the selfish things that come with getting ready to lose your grandma. The good thing is Ang was able to get some peace and a bit of closure last night around 9pm. It was just Ang, Tammy and I in Gma's room. Ang and Tammy (two of the sweetest women in the world) had been trying to get her to open her eyes and squeeze their hands. It was very sweet to see them with their mamaw. She finally tried to speak a bit and even nodded her head after Ang said do you know its Ang? Ang looked at me like a kid does when he skips his first rock and says, "did you see that?" You all know Ang, very genuine, very sweet and looooves her mamaw. Even though this is the morning in which grandpa comes up and does "not want to see her on that machine" I hope papaw can find his closer and peace today. Grieving is a whole other ball of wax. As we are getting ready to head out for the day, my cats are circling through my legs as I walk. It reminds me that even though the morning started slow and hard things are ready for us at the hospital, life is going on all around us. Cats are still going to be hungry, one minute is going to take one minute, the sun is going to hide behind clouds, but eventually it will come back out and the wind will blow again. When you have accepted the worst, then we have nothing to lose which means we have everything to gain.

Who knew life could be so real.
-chris